sap A Broken Heart All I want is a Chance - Just one little Chance - To prove my Love to You Will never fade If I fail the task - One Chance being all I ask - You can forget about me And I will move along Although - I can say I will neve forget about the day That I fell in Love with You That my Heart poured - Gushing out I saw you glance at me - Since then - You're all I see You've rid the sadness within You've given my Heart a smile But You just pushed me aside - Just want You to know I tried To make You Love me - To make You care Why can't I have a Chance - Just one little Chance - I will never let You down I promise You forever - and a Day Everything All of me Belongs to you. At Ease Content - finally with myself and with my life. I found that all I needed to do was let it go. Stop searching. Stop holding on to things I knew would never be. Foolish - As a little boy digging up his yard in search of burried treasure. If I am ever to stumble across love - it shall stumble onto me as it's supposed to be. But until then I end my search. Sit back - relax Forget about the past and stop worrying - about the future. Free Me free me from this hunter's trap free me from this snare free me from this empty life show me you are there free me from ths hurting pain free me if you dare free me from my loneliness show me that you care let me be your everything let me be your friend let me be here by your side I don't want this to end I love you more than everything I love you as you are I love you more than life itself Don't you know I love you? Tomorrow I Need To See You Set aside A piece of my heart A bit of my life For anyone Willing to take it. Not to use it. Never to abuse it. But hold it safe And secure in the thought That I am theirs. Failure Hopeless Lost Alone i fail my Life my Spirit fails itself and through and through i want to die right here, right now i want to cry but tears do not fall for my eyes have failed me too my Heart fails not with its constant beating but the blood it pumps doesn't mean a thing to me Slipping Falling Fading away into the darkness called Solitude into the solitude called Life Awe I look in your eyes and see the beauty you hold. I can't help but glance away as you lean close to me. You whisper in my ear something meaningless to some, but it means much more than the whole world to me. For it to exit your lips and enter my ears is like giving me gold, so refined and so pure. Your life is so precious, more precious than mine. I never cared for anything until I cared for you. How can I not offer everything that I have to someone as shining and as special as you? Shelter In Time Of Need I sit on the park bench, watching the birds, kicking at a loose pebble Rain hits my head; the sky grows dark as the air smells fresh Little by little the ground is soaked with the falling rain Drops of water fall randomly to the ground, finding a place to land The trees shelter me a little from the rain, but drops still find my head It doesn't bother me; my mind's on other things, besides - I like the rain A bird hops under me trying to stay dry. I toss it a bread crumb Before long, I'm soaking wet; torrents of rain drench the earth, throwing itself to the ground But the bird stays dry sitting underneath me, and I feed it bread I am a part of the bird; I keep it dry. My little friend is thankful It feels good to be such an important part of the world and of life I am not alone in this world. I am a part of nature, playing an important role Even the rain, as it falls upon my brow, seems to be a part of me I exist as everything else: rain falls - wind blows, everything is a cycle People and birds alike scurry to find shelter, hiding where we may Looking for a friend, someone to keep us dry, to help without question I sit on the park bench, watching the birds, kicking at a loose pebble... I Want I want to hold you in my arms I want to feel your heart close to mine I want to have your breath on my neck I want your tears to fall from your eyes as they look deep into mine I want to read the words from your lips as you mouth out to me that you love me too I want your life to wrap up with mine like a couple that's cold in a soft feather bed I want for you to care about me I want for you just to see how much your love really means to me Radiance Is ths a waste of time? Was my cause lost Long ago with my heart? From the day we met I've hurt so bad. I don't know what it is I should do. If I give up again or stay with my heart, I'll fail either way. It's clutching my breath closed tight in my chest. My heart in my stomach; My mind on the shelf. I reach out for nothing. I feel so alive and the same so dead. I walk through this dark searching for the light that streams from your heart. You never taste the love that I uncover for you, I am noticeably ignored and my presence denied. Quietly, I cried. Where have I wandered? What have I become? Who becomes the light; Who will save me from this hollow? My mind spurts forth a vision so full. A beautiful tenderness reaching out, touching, with a finger, my soul. As I walk forwards, the light disappears... I stumble into nothing. Faint in the distance, I catch sight of the light. I slowly step in to the illuminated grove. My hands shake and tremble as my fear touches light. Straining to see inside. I see that I am blind. I hear that I can not. Feeling my numbness, my heartfelt suffering escapes from my mouth. You turn in the light, and facing me say, "Take my hand, Don't be afraid, There is nothing to fear." My hand targets yours, as light floods my mind. My heart explodes under the thoughts that race in my sight. I see us together; I see us forever. And then with a flash, I see us apart. I awaken to see us now. You hold me close and kissing my face, wipe away my hurt. I weap in your dress and release my hate. I enter the light; We remain forever. Love comes over me. We peacefully live. I peacefully die. Dreaming Beyond Love Life Is nothing but a dream Filled with dreams Of what could be If only I could stop And live for a while Dreams Wishes for the future Thoughts of what is not Things that will never happen Happen only in my dreams I am happy as I dream Love Found all around me But to me I only See love in my dreams But this is a false love As it is all I imagine Happiness Comes in dreaming I dream about caring When people in reality Care for me more Than I could ever imagine If Only I could wake From my unrealistic dreams And see the love That surrounds me In the form of my friends Friends Last forever and a day Will give themselves in whole To wake you from your dreams Your dreams that make you happy As you drift away from life But It is life that makes you happy Eternal and truthful Not temporary like your dreams Or unreal as the love you imagined As unreal as life, lived only in a dream You setting apart a piece of my heart for you... i must testify i can not lie i love you... something inside feels like i died without you... i so want to live oh what i would give to have you... there's nothing i need but for only to be with you... i hate to admit that this can be it: i can not have you. Simple Realization The time will come When you will love me I will hold you in my arms As you release your tears You will realize finally That I am all you need - for you to be happy - Means the world to me And I will be yours And you will be mine We will forever be together Helping each other through life I Know It Sounds Selfish, But... When do I get to feel happy? When will someone love me? When is this sadness going to end? When am I going to be alright? When will it be my turn? Why am I always hurting? Why do I feel so alone? Why am I so damned depressive? Why should I think of others first? Why do I want to die? How do I know that I love you? How will I tell you my feelings? How long before I explode? How can I get some answers? How come I always wonder? Confusion Why does it go this way? Why is it not how it could be? Almost... So close... Never going to happen. The track has changed. Siderailed to nowhere. Lost my way... Where have you gone? Help me find you again. Something almost was. But something had to change. Why did it? Why did things change? I was so happy with you. I am still willing. I'll give you my everything. Please... Take it... Receive my love without question. I wander towards where you were; To where I saw you last... To where you loved me. schöner Wunsch (Beautiful Desire) You've brought a smile to my lips A blissful smile to my mouth I don't know what it is There's just something great about you It's given feeling to my heart There's a calming in my soul I am pensive as I ponder As to why I can't control myself I want to take you in my arms And just hold you all night long You seem to want the same as I Which is the only lifelong dream of mine Is this too good to be true? This just seems so unreal But also undeniable A love that just appeals to me But could it, no - it couldn't be Or could it? I don't know The more I look into your eyes Greater this feeling grows inside I hope this feeling never dies God, I hope it lasts I swear, I'll never take for granted This tremendous glorious love we have Search For The Sun Opening your heart to me I see your life Opening your life to me I see it in your eyes Opening your eyes now You wrap your arms around me Holding me tightly Our souls become entwined Together as one We search for the sun To light our way Down this winding road I reach for you You look for me Lost in each other And tranquility... Some day when you find That you are alone You'll come to me And find your way home. The Library Of Will And Emotions What did I do to deserve this? Do I deserve anything at all? When I see you there watching me I wonder if it's really worth it... How do I know you won't just let me down Like everyone else around me? Glancing around to know If you're even looking at me Or just looking past me To something more interesting Perhaps someone else Who you love with all your might But not me, never me For I don't deserve you... In my mind - I never deserve a thing. Living For The Day Tough luck is my fate. It is just by chance we met. Looking back a ways I have always waited until I could share your love. Since the day we met I've longed to hold you in my arms. Having to be only friends was something I could bear. Looking forward to the day, I cherished it more than any. Did I miss my chance with you? If I have, I've missed my life. I can only hope to keep on waiting. How much longer shall I wait? I hope I'm not too late. When can I adore your smile? When will it be my turn to love you? Once I thought I heard you say you loved me. It was only the wind. I awoke at night feeling your touch upon me. It was only in my mind. I swore I felt you whisper in my ear. It was only my hair. I sat alone wanting to put my arm around you. You weren't there. Once... And every day... I thought of you. It Won't Be Merry Without You (Christmas All Alone) Standing under the mistletoe, My heart breaks And nobody knows. Walking around the shopping mall With nobody's hand to hold; This season is so lonely and cold. "Jingle bell, jingle bell, Jingle bell rock..." (I miss you.) Couples and families, Sisters and brothers, Together with each other. Christmas lights and candy canes Everyone filled with glee. Now if only you loved me... Santa Claus and holiday cheer. Christmas without you Is the worst time of the year. Lying In A Bed Of Thorns Living for you But unappreciated. Longing your touch There's sorrow in my heart. Borrowing your smile Long enough for a dream. I ache to touch your hair; For you to kiss my lips. The flower of your eyes Blooms for all to see. Now if only it would Blossom for me. Understand Laying aside all my hurt I open my heart for you Ignoring the pain that dwells inside You see me as I am Nothing I say Scares you away I don't deserve you Or the love you gave Why do you understand? Stupid World People see me - They choose to ignore That I exist Am I inferior To their way of life? To their busy work? Their sanity and pride? Am I just a stranger in a land Of worried folks Concerned about their hide? Where everyone Watches his own back - Disbelieving his own brother Just in case truth is lack - Not trusting one another. The world is full of stuffy men Paranoid with shifty eyes They think that everyone (but them) Is full of lies. An Expensive Wish When you smile Your beauty is greater than The suns last light Upon the land You are worth more Than anything to me - More than gold or silver Or, around me, all I see I could never be anything You'll ever need at all Compared to your great beauty My life feels so small I wish that I could just Curl into a ball and die To know that I can't have you - You're more than I can buy So I just sit and watch Your eyes scroll right past mine And wish that I were yours And wish that you were mine. Overwhelmed I am overwhelmed Swamped with thoughts of you Your face quickly lights my eyes As nothing else will do Your smile is like the winter snow I never wish to cease With your laugh you calm my soul You give my mind a peace Your eyes are like none Of any other girl Like to ocean - quiet and deep As precious as a pearl Even past your beauty As shining as a star I love you just for being you Exactly as you are The Meaning Of Life Sitting lonely in this world With no one to call my own Looking for some reason In this life that I oppose I hate myself But love no one else Everything is worthless to me Shriveling up all my emotions Leaving nothing but insanity Locked Up My nose and painted face My plastered smile Tear at my skin As I waste away to nothing Kept locked up in a cage Not worthy of a circus attraction My love is hidden Should I keep it in or let it free? Will the world laugh? Will they think less of me? I don't care about the world What will you think? The sun in the sky can't shine brighter Than the love I have for you The moon and the stars aren't higher Than the way I feel around you. You mean more to me Than my very own being I love you... Can't you see? And They Say Opposites Attract... I feel that I am by myself Even when I'm with friends No matter who I am with This loneliness never ends Whenever I find someone who loves me I always run away afraid I only know how to live alone I guess it's just how I was made Oh, how I hate to be by myself Almost more than I hate when I am with you I can no longer try to be by your side When I am trying to be away from you. Sick And Tired Leaving me alone - I never understood What you saw in me anyways. First you ignore me Then talk to me Then you ignore me again. Maybe it's just a game to you. At least you're having fun. Wishing I wish that I could be with you I wish that you cared I wish for you to think of me when I'm no longer there I wish I could convince you to think of me at all I wish I could talk to you the way I do my friends I wish for you to love me A love that never ends I wish that I could see you when you are not around I wish that I could hold you and never make a sound I wish... Sentiments Of My Reflection As I watch the way you watch me I know you'll never love me To feel this strong emotion And know that it's in vain Is the worst pain I have ever felt. Watching You Live Never at all being the man that you would want to spend forever with I sit and cry looking in your eyes as you look into another's I felt once that you might care but I was wrong and stay alone Left out of your future I keep you in my mind You'll find your love in someone else and I will die alone.